Sometimes I would just like to abandon everything. Go away and start from scratch. But it is scarey , both to loose what I have already and not knowing if I only want it because of a given moment, or if its really time to move on. who knows whats out there... it mught just been the same again. And the same is not good enough.
How do you know that soemboy loves you? I mean, how do you know it deep inside? Everybody is able to say I love you, but where is that thin line, that separates true love, or just a type of character; I mean, some people have just different way of showing love than others... so how do you kno that you are loved or not. If the other person is fooling him/herself and reality does not love you, but just immagines so.
Whatever, maybe its just the way it is and it will always be. Dreams dreamt or being dreamt are just that... dreams, and thats a fact which applies now and will apply in the future, and always.

When you start a countdown on something it probably means that you really really really want it to happen. Like the fact of leaving for holidays.

For me, countdown has already started, and as happy as I can be, I keep writing the remaining days on my little calendar under my computer screen.

'Just' 44 days.